I often ask others, “What is your passion? What makes you tick? What are you living for in the deepest sense? What inspires you to go forward?” Secretly, I’m hoping to discover my own passion, purpose and reason for being.
So I mused on this quietly for a while and this is what came to me.
My passion, my deepest purpose, my reason for being is to grow, to evolve, to become more conscious. Ultimately I want to become at one with life and its mystery.
But at times, this passionate purpose can seem hard to define and hard to measure.
In the past, my passion and purpose were more quantifiable. I wanted a love partner and success in my career. I wanted to work and support myself in a meaningful and abundant way. I wanted my parents to see me and love me at last. Some of these goals I accomplished. Some were impossible. But win or lose, these were tangible goals. But now I realize that they were secondary to my primary goal.
Now I see that underneath and running through all life goals, with their victories and defeats, was a deeper quest. My passion was to tap into the river of meaning that flows through all of reality and through each age-appropriate quest in life.
The quest to become consonant with life’s meaning is my primary passion and always was, even with other secondary, more concrete goals.
Now I see what my passion is: to answer the questions of life and solve the mystery of existence through my living and doing. My passion is to become fully conscious and consonant with truth. Other goals, though necessary in our lives, are secondary to this primary purpose. Now this perspective guides my daily living, loving and doing.
I’m grateful to have solved this riddle of existence which represents a mutation in self-understanding. As I strive to become consonant with truth, my daily living becomes sacred.